The hotel surrounds us

I look out from great - wild - unknowable
cavernous plains 
see stained cream canvas an sky
breathe deep upon
my rituals
the
sadness from sleep
scrubbed at 
coffee - marihuana - toast an butter
I walk past a hollowed out
ashen eyed meth-hole
dead face youth
an a man
in a horrible car
passes slow enough to see his greasy
-
the narratives have spoken .. blood drippin from the lips
-
The light is formidable and the can of beans grin cold sweat beads on my brow..
-
I make it back
back to the room

I look at my bed
there is a black vortex the shape of my body
I step in
one leg
and another

then
I
close the lid.

the way it happens every God-damn day

I 
caught my brain/
stoning my soul/
I chastised
till the voice came hollow
then faded
and my face
image
emerged
from the puddle
drained

...............

Give me
real-life moments
that hurt
cos they're so damn
beautiful
Give me laughter
in the face
of pain
Give me all-encompassing
revelations
that fade to
rise again -the
hope in a million brokens
Give me a smile
that cuts like
knife blade
Give me sincerity

There's the easy way
The hard way
an
The only way
- sometimes hardest of all

Vodka the head-cold
n remember
that feeling
on the edge
ready to let go
drop
fall
n hit

It was amazing..

one giant cliff face
face of an elephant
with a trunk!
we called it
Elephant
on the way
to the cathedral

I drank-

bourbon and beer
I drank-
cunt
terror
and guilt
all away
Like A Real Human God
Cummin up
the
cosmo-nostril

The mornings are only hopeful for a while
car engines lose their
romance and mystery
as they grow in numbers
early sounds
pale to
day
Daytime
Another day
The morning is all but gone
-
the last dregs of coffee
now cold
and
just
plain
disappointing
to the taste...

The nights are paved in wine
and the mornings
soaked in pain

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Bone Horrors Sober

Somehow..

I survived last night
in-spite of horror
dreams
and dead infants

- It could all be so clear
If it wasn't fading
now
with the safety
and hope
of - a
new day
kettle boiled
socks drying on the ledge
- just like me

one hour an three quarters
til checkout..